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Fear of uncertainties, rejection, failure, decissions, direction, the dark, the light, the world, unknown, too much information, perception, ignorance, neglection, so many Anxiety within us that could be just an ilusion of our consious from subconsious information n post trauma experience.
Why , What, is this "fear" ? I keep asking myself, most of the time it is not reall, then why worry, then why argue with logic and emotion, argue with value and morality.
Sometimes the answer is crystal clear, is a defence mechanism for living organism, yet sometimes it create one of the most complex emotion in dessicion making.
Other then what we experience our memory the good the bad as we percive, as humans our biological bodies play such a big role.
Starting from myself as an so calle artist, between the right and left brain, the neurotransmitter that transmit signals from one neuron to the next across synapses, effecting in all sort of emotion that brain alone cant control, that knowledge alone can't conquer.
Then all wraps up together in times where u just wake up out of nothing, Fear comes to haunts you, chasing you, the more you resist it persist, building up more imbalance towards blood stream and so on.
I'm afraid where i ask myself the question, who am I, look at the strangers we become. Why did i do this and that, standing in the edge between wrong and right, searching for the light of truth and found nothing, only left with emptiness within and the so called reality of a great life, if i look at myself i have most of the life i wanted, should that be called content, yet Fear loves to visit when you r most content for some reason.
I don't have the answer, and i don't expect for a specific right answer ever, I can only accept fear n say come to me hopefully when u are done with me, i'll be a bit content.
  • Mood: Artistic
  • Listening to: rain drops
  • Reading: your mind
  • Playing: randomly


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Current Residence: Indonesia
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Favourite genre of music: chill out lounge
Favourite photographer: herb ritz
Favourite style of art: all
Operating System: Mac os Leopard
MP3 player of choice: Winamp
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Wallpaper of choice: black
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Favourite cartoon character: ukyo from samurai spirit, hibiki from bakumastu roman, jin from samurai champloo
Personal Quote: HOPE

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ano-bluehana Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2012  Student Photographer
great work
rus13devils Featured By Owner May 15, 2012
thanks ,much ano :)
ano-bluehana Featured By Owner May 16, 2012  Student Photographer
np ^^
PorcelainMartyr Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2010
Thank you so much for the fav!
I really do appreciate it!
pepey Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2009   Digital Artist
dude, when are u gonna finish ur tarot series...?
rus13devils Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2009
yeess man, i'll try too catch up with u hehehe..
ciaee Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2009  Student General Artist
Thank you so much for the watch, Rusmin! I really appreciate it. :thanks:
rus13devils Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2009
thanks, feel free to visit my gallery
martixxx Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2009
nice gallery :D
hiro2satu Featured By Owner May 5, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
nice work .. saya watch ya ... jgn lupa watch balik ya ....
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