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Fear of uncertainties, rejection, failure, decissions, direction, the dark, the light, the world, unknown, too much information, perception, ignorance, neglection, so many Anxiety within us that could be just an ilusion of our consious from subconsious information n post trauma experience.
Why , What, is this "fear" ? I keep asking myself, most of the time it is not reall, then why worry, then why argue with logic and emotion, argue with value and morality.
Sometimes the answer is crystal clear, is a defence mechanism for living organism, yet sometimes it create one of the most complex emotion in dessicion making.
Other then what we experience our memory the good the bad as we percive, as humans our biological bodies play such a big role.
Starting from myself as an so calle artist, between the right and left brain, the neurotransmitter that transmit signals from one neuron to the next across synapses, effecting in all sort of emotion that brain alone cant control, that knowledge alone can't conquer.
Then all wraps up together in times where u just wake up out of nothing, Fear comes to haunts you, chasing you, the more you resist it persist, building up more imbalance towards blood stream and so on.
I'm afraid where i ask myself the question, who am I, look at the strangers we become. Why did i do this and that, standing in the edge between wrong and right, searching for the light of truth and found nothing, only left with emptiness within and the so called reality of a great life, if i look at myself i have most of the life i wanted, should that be called content, yet Fear loves to visit when you r most content for some reason.
I don't have the answer, and i don't expect for a specific right answer ever, I can only accept fear n say come to me hopefully when u are done with me, i'll be a bit content.
Why , What, is this "fear" ? I keep asking myself, most of the time it is not reall, then why worry, then why argue with logic and emotion, argue with value and morality.
Sometimes the answer is crystal clear, is a defence mechanism for living organism, yet sometimes it create one of the most complex emotion in dessicion making.
Other then what we experience our memory the good the bad as we percive, as humans our biological bodies play such a big role.
Starting from myself as an so calle artist, between the right and left brain, the neurotransmitter that transmit signals from one neuron to the next across synapses, effecting in all sort of emotion that brain alone cant control, that knowledge alone can't conquer.
Then all wraps up together in times where u just wake up out of nothing, Fear comes to haunts you, chasing you, the more you resist it persist, building up more imbalance towards blood stream and so on.
I'm afraid where i ask myself the question, who am I, look at the strangers we become. Why did i do this and that, standing in the edge between wrong and right, searching for the light of truth and found nothing, only left with emptiness within and the so called reality of a great life, if i look at myself i have most of the life i wanted, should that be called content, yet Fear loves to visit when you r most content for some reason.
I don't have the answer, and i don't expect for a specific right answer ever, I can only accept fear n say come to me hopefully when u are done with me, i'll be a bit content.
Empty Soul
Awake in a silent afternoon, nothing is moving, scraps of red splatters, on the wall, on the floor and between the bed sheet.
I should be thinking "what have i done" , but nothing.... i'm sure something had taken my heart away, i still could fell the pain in my chest but it was hollow, i felt nothing.
I did not bother to even clean up or try to think what actually happen.
I went to the mirror, my body is perfectly intact, but when i see deeper, i saw my eyes, is hollow like a pit without an end, i could see my dark rusty bones of my body and wrapped with red hot glowing veins. But still a hole on my chest.
I felt nothing it was good, but
Finally Meet Me
Hi it's me, I'm just a dream that your on.
so don't be afraid I've read all your desire you wrote on the sky.
When you are falling from your world, i open up your eyes and i see it all.
You heart is in me and i fell it now.
I know your speechless now, you don't have to say a thing and i hear you.
Just take my hand and come with me now. Yes ?
Now you are me and i am you
we are just like the sky now, watch me shift and change, flow with me like the river.
happy to see you smile full of joy
You keep on saying Finally meet you, don't leave me ever.
I smile, and said you know what you want and you now what you said.
Is this what you wa
The Dark
Don't Be afraid of the darkness, coz the moon and stars will appear.
The Day the Night, The beginning and the End.
Waiting for the dark to come, to soothe my tire soul.
When I'm broken and bitter, I drove too far that I can't find my peace.
Is easier for me to fake it, so I can't feel it
I'll let You see one of this day, when The Night came, Where I found my hidden cave of wonders.
I'll open your eyes, for clarity, for the truth....when I'm dreaming for you to reach my soul
no update
quite busy, at the moment haven't got the time to update any new work.
alot of sketch no time to colour it. i need some comments to my work as i comment yours.
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